SoulReserve

Linkin Park- Step Up

neko-kohaianiki:

neko-kohaianiki:

my lines may never be lyrical back-flips. My fast pace spitten is litteral stuttering, but my rhymes are sputtering in growth. I may not be an emcee but on my own i can float and gloat about intellect, give respect to get or fuck off with all the neck. Pain is a game of loose to gain, and on the climb to the top never loose yourself to fame. Words to the wise are never overlooked words from the wise are never fully spoke. Black lives matter is orchestrated by the woke. I woke up one day, and died an hour later. the truth was too much for me back then.

Dead man walking. dead man talking, dead man breathing. dead man telling the tales to be forgotten. Dead man being the term for me and myself but not I. Id Ego and super Ego. My id says Akijah, call me Ak. I am a gun so lets have some fun bring me the bullets i need to spray. Dead man at gun point is a gun pointed at yourself. be careful where you point that shit, you might just blast youre own head off. 

I am all that i am, I’ll be what ever you said I’ve been

I am, all that I am. but you’ll never know all that i am.

Id as in Ak call me the otaku. calm is where i like to remain. trudging through the pain of hiking this iceberg of a mind frame. getting away from the sorrow and anger lying beneath but really its just a thin layer like just pull off the sheets. meet the Ego or the lack thereof, confidence lying only in the voice my first talent my only flying dove. if i could write a poem and make it a rap, I’d be a billionaire by the time hit 25. but i cant i write a stanza at best. Meet the turbulent seas of sorrow known as my Ego.we go back into childhood for this story, but no.

Ego as jn the 9 year old version of me as jn Catastroph the hate child of Death and Eris, abandoned to fend for myself jn the mind of what was supposed to be a blessing lost jn translation. Lost himself to the sorrow within. no war can be waged wjthout a fjght to begjn it. so the turbulent sea with a list of tortures. lightning and wind speeds over 95 knots. krakens and sirens and waterspouts galore. only death awaits when you leave the shore to venture lower into depths of self, I let others see. let alone the parts of me i dont see. the catastroh will have you guessin about your life, an annoyance just for presence but deep to the core for love and unity. sappy shit.

I am all that i am, I’ll be what ever you said I’ve been

I am, all that I am. but you’ll never know all that i am.

Now in the jungle a river flows down into the calmest sea. but nothing lives in this river cuz volcanoes lines the floor of the river. the jungle is dense and full of roses and lotus flowers. full of trees and coal and ash. the volcanoes are violence. the want of it. call the super Ego Kalmit. a disgusting being full of insatiable desires. Insatiable lusts. the cause of every angry outburst within me. the Dont give a fuck and completely out of control, and the one more time please, let it fucking go. 

Kalmit. calamity on the impact calm in delivery ch sound of a k without the h. missing aspects of completion. adhesion to the opposite of sanity, shouting out various profanities. call it underlying casualties. I am left unalive since Catastroph and Kalmit cant stand each other. civilized and unmannered or rather not caring for others. what truly makes me humane. No part alone has fear. its a 1 + kinda deal. Catastroph and Kalmit by themselves are two, cataroph Kalmit and Ak are 1. so in sorrow expect humour forced or not. in anger expect an attack. in calm expect insane lines that might be consider rap. But from me always expect fight, who knows I might become a new hype

I am all that i am, I’ll be what ever you said I’ve been

I am, all that I am. but you’ll never know all that i am.

I am all that i am, I’ll be what ever you said I’ve been

I am, all that I am. but you’ll never know all that i am.

Welcome to the mind of mine, this explanation will cost you 5 american dollars

People please understand, I am wild but not out of control

I am Ak, The 49th traveler on the path of double minded iinsanity

I am all that i am, I’ll be what ever you said I’ve been

I am, all that I am. but you’ll never know all that i am.

so this is me, I wrote this with a fucked up laptop. I like to step up to a challenge especially when I know I can’t hack it, my role model in music is Eminem if that wasn’t obvious.
and for those of you I tag I respect you all as poets and hope for a response. if you have the time to.
soulreserve poetry-fortress poeticgravity
two more ppl I wanted to tag but on mobile and cant remember so. blah. and BTW. the I key stopped working in that one paragraph so don’t mind the use of j.

First of all, I want to say that your rap is incredibly creative and refreshing. I read it, yes and I was moved by it. There is raw intensity there and true feelings. And so here’s my response dear neko-kohaianiki, hope you like it <3

You are all that you are
anger, rage and insanity
that is something people will
always see
no matter how well
you hide it
and then your intelligence,
your self worth
your sacrifices
your voice and your niceness
will be forgotten
drowned
in that one rap song
that life is
but we all have choices
not everything is black and whiteness
remember your struggles
but don’t let it madden
don’t let the lust
of anything unbidden
rust and corrode
the being underneath it all…
See! we have to forgive ourselves
love ourselves
first
before we say
“hey! figure me out please.”

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *